Wednesday, May 25, 2011

We Have An Angel

We lost our beloved baby on Monday morning, stillborn at twenty-one weeks.
Seeking comfort, I found this quote from an address given only weeks ago:
At times it may seem that our trials are focused on areas of our lives and parts of our souls with which we seem least able to cope. Since personal growth is an intended outcome of these challenges, it should come as no surprise that the trials can be very personal—almost laser guided to our particular needs or weaknesses. And no one is exempt, especially not Saints striving to do what’s right. Some obedient Saints may ask, “Why me? I’m trying to be good! Why is the Lord allowing this to happen?” The furnace of affliction helps purify even the very best of Saints by burning away the dross in their lives and leaving behind pure gold. 6 Even very rich ore needs refining to remove impurities. Being good is not enough. We want to become like the Savior . . . (Elder Paul V. Johnson, General Conference Address, April 2011)
It has been a deeply sad experience, but it has also been very sacred.  Heaven was (is) near and angels were in our room.   


Eowyn Sanders
Our Angel
May 23, 2011
Psalms 138:3

13 comments:

  1. Oh, Emily (and family), my heart mourns with you!! What a bittersweet time this is for your family. Your last two sentences say it all. May you continue to feel Heaven near for a long time. I recently saw a saying that I love, "The best way to have a bit of heaven in your home, is to have someone from your home in heaven." It really touched me because we also have an angel.

    Thank you for sharing that beautiful quote- I needed to hear it again. I'd like to share with you a quote that we love...

    "The Lord takes many away, even in infancy, that they may excape the envy of man, and the sorrows and evils of this present world; they were too pure, too lovely, to live on earth; therefore, if rightly considered, instead of mourning we have reason to rejoice as they are delivered from evil, and we shall soon have them again..." -Joseph Smith Jr

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  2. Emily, our family is so sorry to hear of your loss. We too have experienced what you have. Reading your sweet post, brought all those feelings back. Know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. Our knowledge of the Plan of Salvation makes having faith during these tough times easier. You are a wonderful family and we know that the Lord is blessing you with love and peace at this hard time. Our hearts are aching with you at this time and know that you will find peace as time goes on! All our love is sent to you at this time!

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  3. My heart is heavy for you and your family. I am indeed sorry for your loss.

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  4. oh I am just in tears. I have been waiting for this post...wondering...

    Joette called me on Sunday. Your dad spoke in her ward. I seriously can't stop thinking about you Emily. I really don't know you that well besides through blogging...but I have grown to love you through your writings. You are such an amazing person.

    What a sad sad thing to go through...I have been praying for you Emily- and for the family- the move...

    You do have an angel.

    My neighbor lost her little baby girl to SIDS when she was 3 months old. She has had the confirmation several times that her little baby girl has comforted her throughout her life and has also helped direct her in family history work. Bittersweet.

    oh I am so so sorry...such a heartache.

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  5. Emily & Justin,

    Our hearts are with you. May I share our angel Tessa's song "Consider the Lilies":

    Consider the lilies of the field,
    How they grow, how they grow.
    Consider the birds in the sky,
    How they fly, how they fly.

    He clothes the lilies of the field.
    He feeds the birds in the sky.
    And He will feed those who trust Him,
    And guide them with His eye.

    Consider the sheep of His fold,
    How they follow where He leads.
    Though the path may wind across the mountains,
    He knows the meadows where they feed.

    He clothes the lilies of the field.
    He feeds the birds in the sky,
    And He will feed those who trust Him,
    And guide them with His eye.

    Consider the sweet, tender children
    Who must suffer on this earth.
    The pains of all of them He carried
    From the day of His birth.

    He clothes the lilies of the field,
    He feeds the lambs in His fold,
    And He will heal those who trust Him,
    And make their hearts as gold.

    He clothes the lilies of the field,
    He feeds the lambs in His fold,
    And He will heal those who trust Him,
    And make their hearts as gold.

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    We love you, and God loves you....and your forever Eowyn.

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  6. Emily,
    So sorry to hear this...you guys are in our thoughts and prayers.
    hugs,
    joni

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  7. Emily,

    My heart breaks for you and your family. You all are in my prayers.

    Cassie

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  8. Emily,
    I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Each situation is different, but I can imagine some of what you are feeling. It's okay to feel sad. I know you have so much faith, but it's okay to feel sad about this loss. I'll be praying for you-- love you.
    Betsy

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  9. I am sorry to hear of your loss. The quote you posted has been meaningful to me in other ways but it is comforting to know Heavenly Father knows which trials we need and what we can handle. You are strong, Emily, and you have a lot of faith and It's OK to feel sad. I'll keep you in my prayers.
    Sh'Nell

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  10. Oh Emily,
    I am thinking about you so much today. At least we know that Heavenly Father has a higher plan for us and our families than sometimes we know. May you be strengthened this week and in the upcoming months. . .I will be praying for you. Take care of yourself! love, Melissa

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  11. Emily,

    It has been months since I've been to your blog (or to any blog... If I check blogs, yours is always at the top of my list!) so I am a little late. But I wanted to let you know how very sorry I am for your loss. I can't even imagine what you are going through. You will be in my prayers.

    ~Amy (Clifton) Jones

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