It was a masterful interpretation of one of our Savior's parables. I won't try to explain what was said, I'll let you watch it yourself, but I will tell you that I was struck, as if hit between the eyes, by this statement:
We consume such precious emotional and spiritual capital clinging tenaciously to the memory of a discordant note we struck in a childhoodThis. is. me. While I worry somewhat about things that cause most people worry, I have found it impossible to let go of my own stupidity, immaturity, or plain old mistakes. I still flush over the thought of, not necessarily the discordant note at a childhood piano recital, but certainly its equal. Not only that, but I also stew over decisions that were made and set in stone. Most of the time, they can't be undone, but still I analyze myself sick.
A little later, another speaker, Elder Uchtdorf, gave an address entitled, The Merciful Obtain Mercy. In it he said,
When the Lord requires that we forgive all men, that includes forgiving ourselves. Sometimes, of all the people in the world, the one who is the hardest to forgive—as well as perhaps the one who is most in need of our forgiveness—is the person looking back at us in the mirror.While I am nowhere near perfect in the matter of forgiveness, I generally forgive others fairly easily. In the case of mercy, it isn't generally too much of a challenge for me to offer mercy, it fact it brings me great joy to be merciful . . . to everyone else.
Is Christ pleased with the mercy I've shown myself? Is He happy with the way I'm spending my precious emotional and spiritual capital?
No! Our Savior who suffered so much so that he could more fully offer mercy, is not pleased! If I have repented of a sin or, in humility, admitted a mistake, I need to stop beating myself up and show mercy to myself in the way I so easily offer it to others.
Yesterday, after making another controversial decision, my husband demanded that we not worry about it any more. He said, "We've done enough worrying. We felt good about the decision, we made it and it is done." It was such a burden off my back! Yes, it is the right decision for our family
and I have vowed to stop wasting my emotional and spiritual capital.